Monday, September 23, 2013

Foreseeable Crisis

Expect the unexpected, prepare for the worst.

September is, as I’ve mentioned on the first entry, an expansion of self-definition month. The self keeps pushing her limits to discovering things she thought she can’t do or is afraid of trying. And in the process of doing so, finding depth on each discovery is the target. It’s like the cherry on top of some sinful dessert or the sweet syrup at the bottom of one Blowjob cocktail.

The usual routine of the self includes:
1.     Family time. When not at work, expect the self to spend the free days at home with folks and the coolest siblings on earth.
2.     Work. Spending 8-12 hours per shift. No, I’m not that lady guard. Nice try, though.
3.   The self-time. Lots of banjing banjing, stares at the ceiling, got bored, reads books, got eye pain, goes out and just have caffeine and nicotine dose without shower, with messy curly hair in bun, dons glasses, rutty shirt and pekpek shorts or pigs out in nearby Frostea and Mcdo or carinderia kind of the self-time.
4.  Skype dates with the boyfriend. Staring at each other for hours and laughing, having meals “together”, and you know the stuff other LDR couples do.
5.    Ganap nights with the self's friends, colleagues, and siblings from another mother are the culprit of jiggling belly yet happier soul.

Predictable. Safe.

Then early this month, the self tried stuff that may not be a biggie for all, but it is to her.

Skateboarding. Hiking. Cheating.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

ENE-ME.

That day will come that you think you are invincible, fearless and one hell of a villain.

The day that your friends will constantly and annoyingly worry about your whereabouts and will probably come up with one wicked conspiracy against your equally wicked thoughts.

The day that you, the self, will realize that yes, you've been nudging yourself out of your comfort zone and been wondering what made you do so.

But the self will justify everything with this: That you might just want to expand your self-definition as Gretchen Ruben put it.

Here are some of her peculiar points.

"Ah, but a man's reach should exceed his grasp, or what's a heaven for?"

If something is worth doing, its worth doing badly.

Enjoy now. If I can enjoy the present, I don't need to count on the happiness that is (or isn't) waiting for me in the future. But in the process of doing so, master the dread of criticism.

And so before you get yourself a headache as if been hit by a sledgehammer, stop it. Stop trying to figure out everything.

Close your eyes. Dodge the urge to answer the why's and how's and what if's and just go with the fucking flow.